http://neon.imeem.com/video/mfa_TSfK/i_dont_wanna_know/
I just can't believe this
This is enough of this thought,
Can't get this out of my head,
Somebody said they saw you
The person you were with wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don't want to know
If you're playing me
Keep it on the low
Cuz my heart cant take it anymore
And if you're creeping
Please don't let it show
Oooh baby, I don't want to know

Does she touch you better than me(Touch you better than me)
Does she watch you fall asleep (watch you fall asleep)
Does she show you love this way and the things you do to me (do to me baby)if you're better off that way (better off that way)baby all that I can say (all that I can say)
Go on and do your thing and don't come back to me(Stay away from me Baby)

I don't wanna know where your Whereabouts or how you movin
I know when you in the house or When you cruising
It's been proving
My love you abusing
I cant understand how a girl
Got you choosin
Undecided I came and provided, My undivided
You came and denied it(why)
Don't even try it,
I know when you lying
Don't even do that
I know why you crying (stop cryin)
Im not applying no pressure, I Just want to let you know
That I don't want to let you go
And I don't want to let you leave
Cant say I didn't let you breath
Now it's time you invest in me
Cuz if not then its best you leave

http://kaylav.imeem.com/video/vzkoXF1R/ashanti_foolish/
I hate what you have done to my heart
all the little games you play
All that you leave me in the dark about
Your apparent wife and girl'
yet you trust others more than me ..and I...
I trusted you so much then
now i don't know if your words are that of love or apart of a plot to win me
you don't seem to believe in the sweet honey drops of words you once spoke to me
so much is heard through my ears and i am my own joker
i pretend to have known all along and pretend to be fine with it all
to most things i am to others not so much
i wish i could say never again and close my eyes and shut the doors to my heart
but i am not like that you see
once you have opened these doors they will always be open to you
they say to forgive those who ask for forgiveness but you have not done so
if you had things would be different there would be no feud
i miss the mornings and lunches
i miss the moments we'd stare at the sky and just loose ourselves in wonder
but you have told me that ..that kind of simplicity is not meant to be lived by you
akward to hear you speak those words being a man who has spoken about nothing but simplicity to me not so long ago
you have taken sides to some degree with enemies of mine you have not seen it like that yet
i have made exceptions to some extent because your were never one of them because you see you held my heart from the start
that is the reason you are not one of them


A mother who i have never gotten the chance to see or talk to was taken away from this world
yet it is today that i am finding this out
the tears rage inside my eyes and my heart has a fire around it that burns so fierce
I am paraded with the thought that i am only able to do so little for a brother who i love so much
the world can call him anything to me hes my brother
there is no truth that he can tell me that will ever make me leave him
yet even then i'm in the dark so often but hes letting in light more now than he did before
he has made me a promise and i have made mine to him

I am kind in a manner that benefits all ..when i am cruel it will be in a manner that will ruin all

"Empires are not brought down by outside forces... they are brought down by forces within"
let all loyalty, honor, trust , and love be tested
i desire the truth

all the people i care about under one roof :)
i must say i'm kinda excited.....so much to do :(

shame on you if you fooled me once shame on me if you fooled me twice
should have known better but i don't so i can't go back
life goes on and its only gonna make me strong
its a fact once you get on board theres no going back

"frailty, thy name is woman"

you were everything i wanted in a man
i gave you my heart my soul . . .i gave you all of me
'A was a man, take him for all in all"
the virtue of his will, his greatness weigh'd his will is not his own

I remember all the little fights that i used to insist on all the tiny ones i would make into larger deals only to have you craddle me and show forgiving affection. . .i loved how you cared that you may have hurt me

I remember when you used to say nothing will ever come between us but you were so wrong in your selection of words

I remember how I would put all my hurt and hide it from you inside me just so i could give you the full attention of my ears, my heart and eyes...but those painful moments of my own i have always kept inside of me away from you , but when you asked me to share i started to and it is then when the comparisons of whose pain was stronger was analysed..once you started on your own pain its as if you became so lost in that hurtful world you place yourself in you'd forget about the reason of my hurt..but i would never tell you that i would once again let go of my own worries and comfort you..

I remember how i would re-read the words you once wrote to me over and over before i went to sleep you felt so much closer to me when i did ..i would hold that teddy bear so tight
I remember in psychology articles of relationships that faced hardship in years before marriage would be stronger when finally combined my marriage..
I remember picturing all those common goals of a future we once shared..I havn't forgotten a single word

None of this exists anymore it is only a memory thats the only living thing inside of me
so easily you left me ...so easily you let your anger your emotions charge ahead of you and onto the heart of our relationship.... you really left me...you really hurt me
the tears that streamed rivers from my eyes are only a pain i understand...i remember before how a single tear from my eyes would stop you in your tracks and you would come back to earth from your raging throne. . .

It was different this time ..this time you left
you left justifying a common misconception that hatred, anger, and frustration is stronger than love
all that will happen after this is simply a result of your reaction that night [frailty, thy name is woman] you would have given an enemy a second glance..a second thought before saying those words..... but i see where my place is..it is sad that the one thing that i have lacked the most ...my rest is what killed me that night and it will never come again...a restless life will be harder to adapt to

Goodbye my love. . . one day i'll see you again perhaps it will be in a place away from here

ok so i'm a little more on top of things today which feeels a lot better i just wish i had control of time and i cud pause moments in my life but unfortunately thats not possible....

"Promise"
Come enjoy the life
Baby take a rideI just wanna vibe with you, you
Baby you and I can have a good time
Tell me what you likeOo oo[Spoken]
Now listen
I've been single for a while now
And I've been kind of lonely
But I'm looking for somebody to talk to,
Love me, someone who can hold me,I
s that you?
I'm looking for somebody I can call boo
Looking for the only one that I can give my all to
Tell me if it's you, you, you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make your move
You can be my teacher
I'll do homework
You can give me extra credit, babyI'll do more work
What you wanna do, do, doNow it's me and you, you, you
Make a move
This mood is so rightIt feels so rightY
ou can be my prince
My knight
You can be my superman
Save me here I am'Cause baby
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with youI'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
You and me together
Picture perfect
I'll spend all my money all my time
Because you're worth it
It's just me and you, you, you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make a move
Call me mama, spoil you like a baby
Thinking about you, dreaming about you
Got me going crazy
What you wanna do, do, do
Now it's me and you, you, you
Make a move
This mood is so right
It feels so right
You can be my prince
My knight
You can be my superman
Save me here I am Baby
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with youI'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
[Spoken]I mean everything that I say
From the bottom of my heart
I will never, never ever hurt youI open my heart
Open my heartGive it to you
Tell the whole world that I'm in love with you
Whatever you want
Baby I'll doI know I don't want nobody else but you
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with youI'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy

i'm in one of those kind of moods that are undescribable in words
emotions are out of control raging everywhere
happy sad....sad happy...mad forgiving...forgiving mad.....
there all but seconds of company
i have come to the conclusion that i hate the word "why"
because most of the times i ask myself that question either there is no one to respond or the responder is not around or avoiding the question
so in conclusion i hate the word

grad seems so exciting but in a way i also feel that it should just be done and over with it is way too time consuming and all the talk about it just leads me to want to get it done and over with

exams are frustrating they always seem to be scheduled around the same time and i am at one point motivated to do well and sit and study but then at another moment i just want to forget all about and just go to sleep or spend my time doing something different.

so much i would like to write but its that feeling of doing something yet nothing that stops me