k so i'm officially freaking out the month of may is coming up so fast...
birthday
grad
school exams

i'm afraid i'm gonna forget something its my worst fear to not have something done perfectly or for me to forget about it completely

the banquet seems over rated $55.00 per ticket for crappy food but all for the sake of beautiful overly expensive dress you might as well show off for the cost. Most people are travelling in big groups or in small ones all over the place to random events. However, I want to spend my time with the people who matter to me who have actually been there through thick and thin..i do not wish to put on a mask and to pretend they are all important and that we've all always gotten along. Sure I want to have a few conversations here and there as well as take dozens of pictures but that is strickly for memories sake only....so i can remind myself of the few treasured good memories there were with those people.

still in a state of panic