So much that i try to fix
so much that doesn't even need fixing

so much that i would like to accomplish
so much that i don't even want to try

so much i wish could happen
so much i wish wouldn't happen at all

everything has an opposite to it i guess
but i guess what makes me stunned the most is how i am somehow always losing control of my emotions ...there are times where I am able to maintain some kind of control over it and on those days i feel like a cold lonely stone...without the feeling of being lonesome though..its akward

longing for so much . . ... .. sadly it'll remain that way